For a moment we can pause and take a deeper breath. The empty feeling of leaving Las Dalias is still hard to shake, but we are glad to know we have a place to rest for three whole weeks. Its spartan, but it works. The big relief was successfully connecting to the internet. For a few days, we had no telephone and no internet, and the isolated feeling that surrounds me constantly here intensified exponentially at the thought of not being able to reach out to anyone, over any medium.
We must thank Cesar again, as he showed us to our first ceviche shack in the district of Barranco to take our minds off things for a moment. Zarach's looks unimpressive, but the food was incredible, and though we were all a little concerned about the aftermath of our first experience with the ceviche, it did not disappoint, and our stomachs are still, i'm happy to report, doing just fine.
We also tried our first Pisco Sours, and its something I could easily make a habit of here. Cesar laughs as my face turns a little red: the drink is the pisco liquor, lime, simple syrup, egg white and ice, and tastes something like a very perfect, smooth, earthy margarita. Diego, our friend and cabby introduced us to "leche tigre," also known as panther milk. We took timid tastes of the white chunky stuff before he reveals its nothing more than blended ceviche. Sighs of relief are audible, as we still harbor concern for our fragile American digestion.
Our first night in the new apartment in San Isidro is just a little bit cold. Cesar has headed for the bus station, but left us with some bootlegged American dvds for entertainment, and probably familiarity just as much. He's thoughtful beyond reason and we are lucky to call him a friend.
The apartment is mostly stone and tile, and we hear our voices echoing around the place while wishing we'd packed furry slippers (Its supposed to be summer here soon!). The first meal here has helped liven the mood. We would have had wine, but for the lack of an opener. We'll warm it up with time.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Cesar
Saturday in Miraflores brought two milestones:
Uno: My first jog . In every place i've ever lived or called home, the inagural jog from the place helps adjust my bearings and feel out my attitude about the area. Saturday, Miraflores happens to be just a bit less hectic than usual. I headed out from 561 Ca. Las Dalias down towards the coast and the esplanade. The bay air is chewy, and I think an altogether novel experience for my fresh air priveledged lungs. The paved path follows the cliffed perimeter of Miraflores, and down below, surfers bob in time to the even sets. The sun breaks every now and then, and the water turns the sort of shade of blue it maybe should be. Past 'Lover's Point,' its a large clay statue of a kiss and its stunning in its own clumsy terra-cotta way. I catch another jogger in my sights, and set a pace behind her for a while until I find my destination: a lighthouse on a sturdy jetty. Winding around it, wish I could somehow have brought my camera. My limbs feel awake again, and its marvelous. Sticky, but marvelous. There is a strange, sweet tinge to the air. Its time to turn back.
Dos: My first sip of coffee since very early last tuesday morning. It tastes amazing. We'd been too wary of Montezuma's Revenge to make coffee ourselves, as we've been warned against both the water and the milk, but for the Americano, its worth every sole, and the risk I run of severe gastric distress.
First glimpse of the ever popular paragliders Saturday also: very cool.
After Teresa's second treatment, which felt just a little bit more routine, we headed back to the 'Larcomar,' a touristy mall on the cliffs filled with expensive boutiques, designer alpaca wear, and of course, Starbucks. Celebrating Saturday night, dinner and our first cocktails are had at 'Mangos: Sabor Sin Limites.' Dessert is churros from the vendor in the open air market. The woman in the handbag shop smiles, she comments (i think) that churro is also how they refer to handsome men. "Churro?" I ask. "Si, churro...em...Delicious!" The laughter is refreshing. Some things don't need translation.
Sunday came, and with it the crunch to find a new place to stay. Wednesday is our deadline. The day is spent mosty in the apartment with 'El Comercio' digging through the 'classificados.' I sneak out around 4pm to procure energy boosting coffees for morale. Kat and I run out in the early evening for groceries for dinner...I'm taking very quickly to Vivanda as I'm cooking more and more.
Monday morning Cesar arrives early, and we are lucky (so lucky I can't even begin to describe) to have his help. Cesar is a freind of Kelcy's from a town to the north. He's come by a long bus ride to help us visit apartments. His english is good.
"You are a lifesaver," Teresa tells him.
"No, just a friend." Cesar replies.
I've read about the unparalled hospitality of the Peruvians, but not until now do I understand just how far it extends. We're crippled by the humbling feeling of thanks for his generosity. He takes us around the city with a cabby he trusts, always smiling. I don't think he knows just how much he has done for us. I very much hope its true that he had other business in the city and did not make the trip just for us.
He dosen't quite understand why three girls, gringas no less, would come here with no friends and no connections, and if he thinks we are crazy (as i suspect) he is probably at least a little bit right. Today was hard. Tensions and frustrations were close to the surface with less than 48 hours to find a place to stay.
In the early evening, we've found a place that will work for now. Even this small measure of success feels like a great accomplishment and is so welcome at this point. Enter Cesar again, who seems to have sensed, if not outright witnessed our anxiety, and he knows the perfect cure.
On the top floor of the "Hotel Las Americas," he's shown us to a great restaraunt with a sweeping view of at least three districts of Lima. In the elevator up, I have to force back tears, the urge is the strongest its been in this city so far: Here is Cesar, this morning a stranger and now a great friend, who has not only helped us find a place to live, but also helped us to reconnect the relationships that brought us here in the first place. A bottle of peppery Peruvian cabernet later and some Lomo Seltado (?sp) (traditional Peruvian dish) we can face the next day.
We are hermanos. Today, and everyday.
Uno: My first jog . In every place i've ever lived or called home, the inagural jog from the place helps adjust my bearings and feel out my attitude about the area. Saturday, Miraflores happens to be just a bit less hectic than usual. I headed out from 561 Ca. Las Dalias down towards the coast and the esplanade. The bay air is chewy, and I think an altogether novel experience for my fresh air priveledged lungs. The paved path follows the cliffed perimeter of Miraflores, and down below, surfers bob in time to the even sets. The sun breaks every now and then, and the water turns the sort of shade of blue it maybe should be. Past 'Lover's Point,' its a large clay statue of a kiss and its stunning in its own clumsy terra-cotta way. I catch another jogger in my sights, and set a pace behind her for a while until I find my destination: a lighthouse on a sturdy jetty. Winding around it, wish I could somehow have brought my camera. My limbs feel awake again, and its marvelous. Sticky, but marvelous. There is a strange, sweet tinge to the air. Its time to turn back.
Dos: My first sip of coffee since very early last tuesday morning. It tastes amazing. We'd been too wary of Montezuma's Revenge to make coffee ourselves, as we've been warned against both the water and the milk, but for the Americano, its worth every sole, and the risk I run of severe gastric distress.
First glimpse of the ever popular paragliders Saturday also: very cool.
After Teresa's second treatment, which felt just a little bit more routine, we headed back to the 'Larcomar,' a touristy mall on the cliffs filled with expensive boutiques, designer alpaca wear, and of course, Starbucks. Celebrating Saturday night, dinner and our first cocktails are had at 'Mangos: Sabor Sin Limites.' Dessert is churros from the vendor in the open air market. The woman in the handbag shop smiles, she comments (i think) that churro is also how they refer to handsome men. "Churro?" I ask. "Si, churro...em...Delicious!" The laughter is refreshing. Some things don't need translation.
Sunday came, and with it the crunch to find a new place to stay. Wednesday is our deadline. The day is spent mosty in the apartment with 'El Comercio' digging through the 'classificados.' I sneak out around 4pm to procure energy boosting coffees for morale. Kat and I run out in the early evening for groceries for dinner...I'm taking very quickly to Vivanda as I'm cooking more and more.
Monday morning Cesar arrives early, and we are lucky (so lucky I can't even begin to describe) to have his help. Cesar is a freind of Kelcy's from a town to the north. He's come by a long bus ride to help us visit apartments. His english is good.
"You are a lifesaver," Teresa tells him.
"No, just a friend." Cesar replies.
I've read about the unparalled hospitality of the Peruvians, but not until now do I understand just how far it extends. We're crippled by the humbling feeling of thanks for his generosity. He takes us around the city with a cabby he trusts, always smiling. I don't think he knows just how much he has done for us. I very much hope its true that he had other business in the city and did not make the trip just for us.
He dosen't quite understand why three girls, gringas no less, would come here with no friends and no connections, and if he thinks we are crazy (as i suspect) he is probably at least a little bit right. Today was hard. Tensions and frustrations were close to the surface with less than 48 hours to find a place to stay.
In the early evening, we've found a place that will work for now. Even this small measure of success feels like a great accomplishment and is so welcome at this point. Enter Cesar again, who seems to have sensed, if not outright witnessed our anxiety, and he knows the perfect cure.
On the top floor of the "Hotel Las Americas," he's shown us to a great restaraunt with a sweeping view of at least three districts of Lima. In the elevator up, I have to force back tears, the urge is the strongest its been in this city so far: Here is Cesar, this morning a stranger and now a great friend, who has not only helped us find a place to live, but also helped us to reconnect the relationships that brought us here in the first place. A bottle of peppery Peruvian cabernet later and some Lomo Seltado (?sp) (traditional Peruvian dish) we can face the next day.
We are hermanos. Today, and everyday.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Where the Ocean Breeze Comes From
Apart from waking up this morning and wondering where the hell I was, Frida
There's still relentless anxiety, mostly about where our next living arrangement will come from, but for now, we had a good day (see photo: Katrina, Teresa and I visit the coastline for the first time)
And two trips to Vivanda later, we had dinner. It's still hard for me not be astonished by the sheer volume of people in such a small space. The noise is incessant: car horns, sirens, alarms, pigeons...strange parades at midnight with only three notes in the horn section...the never-ending movement of speeding cars and yelling people: the chaos is the culture.
Homesick levels so far seem to be moderate among us, though i'm not sure how much of it is subconsciously surreal still.
On our walk down to the promenade, we discovered perhaps the most cool eatery of all time:
Teresa wants to have dinner here on her birthday, and so far no one has objected.
More Miraflores:
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Manos Que Curan
(The three of us heading for our first real day in Miraflores-pardon the self-portrait)I had a feeling from seeing the clinic building yesterday that it would not be as i've pictured. And its not.
We started today with high spirits, a credit for certain to a 12 hour solid night's sleep. Well earned. After getting ready, we head out for a little exploring before heading to the clinic appointment at 3pm. Its much easier to gain our bearings by the light of day. And today, it is brighter, I've even spotted the sun, which in itself is cause for celebration. Its quickly swallowed by a 'marine layer' however, which i'm certain is mostly pollution. You can smell it.
Lunch is found at a restraunt: the Mezze Cafe, a few blocks from the apartment on the way to the bank where we're headed to get the deposit dinero for Hugo. The girls that wait on us are almost too kind. We're still getting the hang of ordering food. Kat's meal looks the best, there's beef and veggies and rice. Its nice to have some real food. The waitresses help us call a cab, and after an exhausting episode trying to get into the cab, we're finally on the way to the clinic.
(Teresa and Katrina at Mezze Cafe)We buzz in and a round, quiet peruvian woman comes to let us through the large wraught iron gates. Through another locking door on the inside of the structure is the waiting area. Its small, non descript. No signage, all in all very un-noticable. It smells strongly like a more organic Ben-Gay cream. We wait a few moments and a woman in blue scrubs and gleaming white shoes comes to greet us. 'Teresa?' We're excited. She shows us back to a treatment room in the back of the clinic. The place is small, hard to navigate via wheelchair. But we've made it.
Dr. Laura finally makes her appearance and there is palpable excitment and relief. Well, she speaks no english, but the relief is still there, only accompanied by my inherited spanish-english dictionary and Dad's copy of 201 Spanish Verbs- its come in VERY handy. Thanks Pop.
Her assistant is introduced and they start work on Teresa's feet and legs first. Applying a strongly scented green cream in what looks like recylced baby food jars, the smell grows more intense. Ben-Gay, most definately. Teresa manages to ask what is in the cream enough for Dr. Laura to understand: Plantas...animales...
Dr. Laura is warm, and I imagine from all the subsidiary laughing around the clinic, very funny as well. Tears are almost unavoidable, as we've finally gotten here. Its absolutely a triumph for these three travelers. Dr. Laura's assistant tries to ask if anything hurts as he massages behind her knee. I try to explain how Teresa has explained it to me: its painful, but it hurts so GOOD. Its not an easy exchange. There is a lot of gesturing on my behalf.
After about an hour and a half of rubbing the cream and massaging, its time to go. But first we get some directions: no showering for what we think is 24hrs, and before showering her, we must rub her with lemons. That part we are sure about. Lemons. Check. Dr. Laura hugs us goodbye and makes sure we'll see her again Saturday.
We're excited to run into Lino again outside the clinic, he mentions he's tried to call the apartment, but we've been out. Since the weather is nice, we ask if we could walk back to the apartment. He shows us the map and explains its about 12 blocks. I'm not sure what his idea of blocks is, but its nothing like mine, or Katrina's, or Teresa's. The walk is nearly too much for Teresa as the sidewalks are unimproved and the ride is terribly bumby and uncomfortable for her.
We make it back to the apartment only a little worse for the wear, but at least the long walk has afforded us a few glimpses of what promises to be a breathtaking coastline. I can't wait to see it by a clear sky. Rest is in order for Teresa, and its time for food again.
Katrina and I head for the Vivanda, a little more comfortable in our surroundings, and after wrangling with some unrecognizable packaging and some eggs that were not refigerated (still wondering about that...any thoughts on whether they're safe to eat? odd to just see eggs on the shelf.)
Back in the apartment to some familiar tunes, I'm making dinner...something i'm not especially good at but at which Katrina swears she is worse. We've got rice, carrots, asparagus, and zuchinni...its not much but after some boiling and some buttering, its not bad. Especially to have greens in our bellies again.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Landing
How do I start explaining the last 24-36 hours...completely and totally surreal.
On the last phone call from Miami, my brother gave us some advice that is meaning more and more to me every moment:
Keep your heads up and your hearts open.
I know somehow he was imagining how much this first day in Lima was going to try to break our spirits. We are in another world. One where everything, even the simplest tasks, can become a major, day-altering challenge.
We got off the plane at 4am, 6am Lima time, my body having no concept of time whatsoever. Exhausted from a grueling 3 flight red eye trip, customs was unexpectedly uneventful, and complication free, we managed to cart our luggage and head for our fist glimpse of Calloa.
On the way, the small peruvian man holding the sign: Teresa Schoeder met us and helped us out to the taxi van. We struggled to get things to fit, and after some wheelchair adjustments, we discover that our 'english speaking' cabby is not, in fact, english speaking, even a little bit.
And so began what would be the first of many encounters with a frustrating and aggravating and totally at times, morally defeating language barrier. We try to explain that we'd like to see where the clinic is on the way to the apartment where we will stay so we can try to get our bearings. Its too much confusion. We go to the apartment. But there's a problem, it won't be cleaned and ready for us until 7pm. There's another apartment where we can stay until then. Relief! sort of...we wind around looking for it, and finally, we set foot inside. The smell reminds me of Mexico- damp and always just a little bit funky.
It already seems like a lifetime since we said our goodbyes at PDX. We test the internet connection, and in a morale boosting burst of technological wonderment, we contact our loved ones eager to convey our well-being.
Contact. It feels SO good, even over the cold impartiality of hardware.
After a nap thats not nearly long enough, we need water and food. The last 'meal' was stale tasting Pizza Hut in the terminal at Miami International. Forever ago now as much as my stomach is concerned. Without leaving the bags, we've got to get supplies, and someone must stay with Teresa.
We met an english speaking custodian, Orlando, in the lobby, who kindly offered his help. He told us he could go with us to the Vivanda, the supermarket. My stomach pivots when Katrina announces she is resolved to going with him to get us lunch. She's only gone twenty or so minutes, but as Teresa and I sit quietly waiting, every second drags. Its the first time on this trip time has seemed at all sluggish.
VICTORY! She returns with water (con gas, claro!) Ritz, some cheese, bananas, oranges, and to the intense relief of my caffeine-lacking headache, Pepsi. We are saved.
The next expedition brings us the same driver from the airport, bet we've managed to work the phone card, and procured what we hope will actually be an english speaking interpreter. His name is Lino, and he is an absolute miracle. While his english is not strong by any means, we know enough between the three of us to get us to the location of Manos Que Curan (the clinic), after, of course, a few more obstacles. I'm convinced navigating the streets of Miraflores is a hazard to one's health.
Once there we recieved some disheartening news, in front of a strange grey building set behing a car dealership on a busy Miraflores street, we learn that Dr. Laura is not in today, but that she will be there tomorow at 3pm. At least we know where the clinic is. In theory anyways. The driver takes us next to what I can only imagine as the Peruvian version of Best Buy and Lino helps us purchase a 'transformador' for Katrina's laptop so we don't fry our only means of communication to the outside world. We're also still hungry.
The restraunt that is easy to get to and on the way back to the apartment is, of course, McDonalds. We never eat there in the states, but leave it to three american girls to experience their fist South American meal from underneath the golden arches. Trust me, the irony is not lost on us.
The drive takes us two hours all told. Its $40 American. 120 soles. After the cabby leaves, Lino gives us his number and tells us he'll drive us anywhere for half that.
Back in the apartment, we strategize ways to test the transformer- we're not 100% sure we've purchased the right one. Enter the communication barrier once again, even with Lino and his big heart. With a lack of disposable appliances to test on, we phone Kelcy. He's a good freind from home and he's spent a lot of time in Peru. Actually reaching his ringtone after the flurry of pitchy spanish accents is yet another small sort of triumph. He affirms the voltage, and we charge the laptop.
Its almost time to make the move to what will hopefully be our accomodations for the week. We've packed up and gotten Teresa a shower, an activity Katrina and I are both incredibly anxious to be able to indulge in ourselves.
I'm on edge about bringing us and all of our belongings out into the dark of Miraflores, but a familiar cabby has shown up, i recognize him from earlier today somehow, and we're on our way. Its another expensive cab ride, but we arrive. There's a bubbly peruvian woman who takes us through the apartment, and then mentions the deposit. This is the first we've heard of it. $250 American. Cash only. Of course. We don't have it.
After I speak with someone on the phone who commands at least a few words of english, she arranges for us to drop it off tomorow with the door man 'Hugo,' and by her sign language, I assume he will have a mustache.
Finally having showered and sitting down to relax, Katrina has connected with her Mom, who we all adore, through Skype and it visibly bolsters morale. Later on, she videoconferences Kelcy and Josh back home, and it helps us beyond measure after such a trying day to see freindly faces who understand. Its going to be a good night's sleep. Finally.
On the last phone call from Miami, my brother gave us some advice that is meaning more and more to me every moment:
Keep your heads up and your hearts open.
I know somehow he was imagining how much this first day in Lima was going to try to break our spirits. We are in another world. One where everything, even the simplest tasks, can become a major, day-altering challenge.
We got off the plane at 4am, 6am Lima time, my body having no concept of time whatsoever. Exhausted from a grueling 3 flight red eye trip, customs was unexpectedly uneventful, and complication free, we managed to cart our luggage and head for our fist glimpse of Calloa.
On the way, the small peruvian man holding the sign: Teresa Schoeder met us and helped us out to the taxi van. We struggled to get things to fit, and after some wheelchair adjustments, we discover that our 'english speaking' cabby is not, in fact, english speaking, even a little bit.
And so began what would be the first of many encounters with a frustrating and aggravating and totally at times, morally defeating language barrier. We try to explain that we'd like to see where the clinic is on the way to the apartment where we will stay so we can try to get our bearings. Its too much confusion. We go to the apartment. But there's a problem, it won't be cleaned and ready for us until 7pm. There's another apartment where we can stay until then. Relief! sort of...we wind around looking for it, and finally, we set foot inside. The smell reminds me of Mexico- damp and always just a little bit funky.
It already seems like a lifetime since we said our goodbyes at PDX. We test the internet connection, and in a morale boosting burst of technological wonderment, we contact our loved ones eager to convey our well-being.
Contact. It feels SO good, even over the cold impartiality of hardware.
After a nap thats not nearly long enough, we need water and food. The last 'meal' was stale tasting Pizza Hut in the terminal at Miami International. Forever ago now as much as my stomach is concerned. Without leaving the bags, we've got to get supplies, and someone must stay with Teresa.
We met an english speaking custodian, Orlando, in the lobby, who kindly offered his help. He told us he could go with us to the Vivanda, the supermarket. My stomach pivots when Katrina announces she is resolved to going with him to get us lunch. She's only gone twenty or so minutes, but as Teresa and I sit quietly waiting, every second drags. Its the first time on this trip time has seemed at all sluggish.
VICTORY! She returns with water (con gas, claro!) Ritz, some cheese, bananas, oranges, and to the intense relief of my caffeine-lacking headache, Pepsi. We are saved.
The next expedition brings us the same driver from the airport, bet we've managed to work the phone card, and procured what we hope will actually be an english speaking interpreter. His name is Lino, and he is an absolute miracle. While his english is not strong by any means, we know enough between the three of us to get us to the location of Manos Que Curan (the clinic), after, of course, a few more obstacles. I'm convinced navigating the streets of Miraflores is a hazard to one's health.
Once there we recieved some disheartening news, in front of a strange grey building set behing a car dealership on a busy Miraflores street, we learn that Dr. Laura is not in today, but that she will be there tomorow at 3pm. At least we know where the clinic is. In theory anyways. The driver takes us next to what I can only imagine as the Peruvian version of Best Buy and Lino helps us purchase a 'transformador' for Katrina's laptop so we don't fry our only means of communication to the outside world. We're also still hungry.
The restraunt that is easy to get to and on the way back to the apartment is, of course, McDonalds. We never eat there in the states, but leave it to three american girls to experience their fist South American meal from underneath the golden arches. Trust me, the irony is not lost on us.
The drive takes us two hours all told. Its $40 American. 120 soles. After the cabby leaves, Lino gives us his number and tells us he'll drive us anywhere for half that.
Back in the apartment, we strategize ways to test the transformer- we're not 100% sure we've purchased the right one. Enter the communication barrier once again, even with Lino and his big heart. With a lack of disposable appliances to test on, we phone Kelcy. He's a good freind from home and he's spent a lot of time in Peru. Actually reaching his ringtone after the flurry of pitchy spanish accents is yet another small sort of triumph. He affirms the voltage, and we charge the laptop.
Its almost time to make the move to what will hopefully be our accomodations for the week. We've packed up and gotten Teresa a shower, an activity Katrina and I are both incredibly anxious to be able to indulge in ourselves.
I'm on edge about bringing us and all of our belongings out into the dark of Miraflores, but a familiar cabby has shown up, i recognize him from earlier today somehow, and we're on our way. Its another expensive cab ride, but we arrive. There's a bubbly peruvian woman who takes us through the apartment, and then mentions the deposit. This is the first we've heard of it. $250 American. Cash only. Of course. We don't have it.
After I speak with someone on the phone who commands at least a few words of english, she arranges for us to drop it off tomorow with the door man 'Hugo,' and by her sign language, I assume he will have a mustache.
Finally having showered and sitting down to relax, Katrina has connected with her Mom, who we all adore, through Skype and it visibly bolsters morale. Later on, she videoconferences Kelcy and Josh back home, and it helps us beyond measure after such a trying day to see freindly faces who understand. Its going to be a good night's sleep. Finally.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Final Moments
I can hear the seconds ticking away in the shallows of my thoughts.
Less than 12 hours
I know that tonight actual sleeping will be laughable. I said goodbye to the newlyweds who plied us with wedding lasagna and left over carrot cake. My small little nephew petted me as I kissed him goodbye and waved through the glass as the car pulled away. There were tears in my brothers eyes, and mine as well.
Its been an emotion few days.
Just last night we toasted his marriage and enjoyed ourselves through a history-making wedding and reception. It seems unreal that in such short order I'll be leaving all that behind me. In the early morning we'll be on a plane, and there is a sort of placid finality about this realization: that all of our efforts and aggravations over the past few months will be made obsolete in the wake of jet fuel and too many goodbyes. There will be nothing more we can do to prepare ourselves. No matter of worry measures anymore, as there remains only what we do, and what we do not.
The last point of contact is tomorrow evening in Miami, via Philadelphia, before we make the long night stretch of flight into Lima. And from then, there but for the grace of god, go we.
Less than 12 hours
I know that tonight actual sleeping will be laughable. I said goodbye to the newlyweds who plied us with wedding lasagna and left over carrot cake. My small little nephew petted me as I kissed him goodbye and waved through the glass as the car pulled away. There were tears in my brothers eyes, and mine as well.
Its been an emotion few days.
Just last night we toasted his marriage and enjoyed ourselves through a history-making wedding and reception. It seems unreal that in such short order I'll be leaving all that behind me. In the early morning we'll be on a plane, and there is a sort of placid finality about this realization: that all of our efforts and aggravations over the past few months will be made obsolete in the wake of jet fuel and too many goodbyes. There will be nothing more we can do to prepare ourselves. No matter of worry measures anymore, as there remains only what we do, and what we do not.
The last point of contact is tomorrow evening in Miami, via Philadelphia, before we make the long night stretch of flight into Lima. And from then, there but for the grace of god, go we.
Friday, October 10, 2008
The Calm Before the Storm
Its a beautiful Portland fall Friday, and the countdown to departure has officially begun:
10 days.
My roomate and soon to be travel buddy has started packing, and the apartment looks more depressing than normal. The beiges are more beige without the trappings of what has been our home for a while. True to form, I seem to be putting it off as long as possible, though i'm not sure why because in all honestly, i've spent most of my time throughout the past several months trying to contrive any reason possible to not be in our apartment. I work late, I hang around the park after jogs, I crash at freinds' houses. My stuff lives there, but i barely do. My stuff...how much of it has ended up owning me at this point i'm not quite sure.
I'll be glad to part ways with that neutral toned monstrosity. Our neighbor's dog vomitted in the breezeway two weeks ago, and it wasn't until it finally rained that it started to go away at all. There are things I will not miss about it at all.
I suppose it makes sense to start recording this journey before we even come close to stepping on a plane, since the emotional journey, i think for all of us, has started so much earlier. From incessant running and uneasy stomachs to early morning conversations with the people closest to me, the journey is underway. I'm finding that running no longer quells the anxiety, and instead of ending a jog with burning quads and a clear head, i stutter to a halt, short of breath for the knot that refuses to release my gut. I know i've decided correctly; my heart is right. My head is just taking its own sweet time coming around. It's not used to this feeling, and maybe thats what tells me it is right.
Since this is the first blog in our journey, i should provide some backstory: her name is Teresa, and she's the reason i'm procrastinating the packing of my apartment. She was seriously injured in a snowboarding accident three years ago that left her mostly paralyzed. She has the potential to recover though, and she's tried just about everything. What she hasn't been able to try however, is a time honored practice in Lima, Peru. Which is where we're going. The idea is to get her to her first few months of treatment at Manos Que Curan and we'll know whether or not she will recover fully. After looking over her records, they've given her a 70-100% shot at recovery. And if it were me in the wheelchair, those are odds i would cross the globe for too.
The other reason i'm procrastinating is the lovely miss Katrina. We graduated together, and we've been close since, our lives converging in ways neither of us could ever have seen coming. She's the reason i'm going along on this crazy adventure as Teresa is a family freind of hers. She had been petitioning me to come along to help her and Teresa long before i was actually entertaining the idea, and one early morning driving back from a weekend in Spokane i sent the text message that, for me, started everything:
'I'm in. Lima here we come.'
And we're coming... but its been an emotional, jarring process. There's been paperwork, training classes, endless frustrations over itineraries, fingerprinting, heated discussions, and least favorite of all, making like human pincushions at the Portland Travel Clinic. Tucked up off of 23rd, in a picturesque office filled with photos of giraffes, Kat and i got pumped full of yellow fever, typhoid, and a myriad of other precautionary vaccines. They were fresh out of the rabies vaccine (apparently there's a world wide shortage), which made things cheaper, though i think we've both made mental notes to be on look out for dogs and bats. We also came away with prescriptions for malaria meds and the ever anticipated TD.
I think i've started to deal with the fact that i am very afraid. And i'm sure i have no idea yet what there is to be fearful of. Is it the seven-year-olds with razor blades we've heard stories about? Or perhaps more likely the loneliness that will well up when i spend my first holidays away from the six people who make up my heart and feeling isolated in ways i can't imagine?
10 days.
My roomate and soon to be travel buddy has started packing, and the apartment looks more depressing than normal. The beiges are more beige without the trappings of what has been our home for a while. True to form, I seem to be putting it off as long as possible, though i'm not sure why because in all honestly, i've spent most of my time throughout the past several months trying to contrive any reason possible to not be in our apartment. I work late, I hang around the park after jogs, I crash at freinds' houses. My stuff lives there, but i barely do. My stuff...how much of it has ended up owning me at this point i'm not quite sure.
I'll be glad to part ways with that neutral toned monstrosity. Our neighbor's dog vomitted in the breezeway two weeks ago, and it wasn't until it finally rained that it started to go away at all. There are things I will not miss about it at all.
I suppose it makes sense to start recording this journey before we even come close to stepping on a plane, since the emotional journey, i think for all of us, has started so much earlier. From incessant running and uneasy stomachs to early morning conversations with the people closest to me, the journey is underway. I'm finding that running no longer quells the anxiety, and instead of ending a jog with burning quads and a clear head, i stutter to a halt, short of breath for the knot that refuses to release my gut. I know i've decided correctly; my heart is right. My head is just taking its own sweet time coming around. It's not used to this feeling, and maybe thats what tells me it is right.
Since this is the first blog in our journey, i should provide some backstory: her name is Teresa, and she's the reason i'm procrastinating the packing of my apartment. She was seriously injured in a snowboarding accident three years ago that left her mostly paralyzed. She has the potential to recover though, and she's tried just about everything. What she hasn't been able to try however, is a time honored practice in Lima, Peru. Which is where we're going. The idea is to get her to her first few months of treatment at Manos Que Curan and we'll know whether or not she will recover fully. After looking over her records, they've given her a 70-100% shot at recovery. And if it were me in the wheelchair, those are odds i would cross the globe for too.
The other reason i'm procrastinating is the lovely miss Katrina. We graduated together, and we've been close since, our lives converging in ways neither of us could ever have seen coming. She's the reason i'm going along on this crazy adventure as Teresa is a family freind of hers. She had been petitioning me to come along to help her and Teresa long before i was actually entertaining the idea, and one early morning driving back from a weekend in Spokane i sent the text message that, for me, started everything:
'I'm in. Lima here we come.'
And we're coming... but its been an emotional, jarring process. There's been paperwork, training classes, endless frustrations over itineraries, fingerprinting, heated discussions, and least favorite of all, making like human pincushions at the Portland Travel Clinic. Tucked up off of 23rd, in a picturesque office filled with photos of giraffes, Kat and i got pumped full of yellow fever, typhoid, and a myriad of other precautionary vaccines. They were fresh out of the rabies vaccine (apparently there's a world wide shortage), which made things cheaper, though i think we've both made mental notes to be on look out for dogs and bats. We also came away with prescriptions for malaria meds and the ever anticipated TD.
I think i've started to deal with the fact that i am very afraid. And i'm sure i have no idea yet what there is to be fearful of. Is it the seven-year-olds with razor blades we've heard stories about? Or perhaps more likely the loneliness that will well up when i spend my first holidays away from the six people who make up my heart and feeling isolated in ways i can't imagine?
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